Pickles, Anyone?

As I am crunching a delicious pickle, I tell my husband...see, I am pregnant!  I'm eating pickles!

Yummy!  My first craving today as a NON PREGNANT person...hehe  It was very tasty!  I went to the movies with my family tonight-well, sort of...My step-mom took the kids to watch "Despereaux" and I went to see "Yes, Man!" with my DH & Dad!  Very funny movie...I laughed pretty hard.  It made me walk out of the theater wanting to say YES!   Very inspirational!  Watch out, Leah & Heath...Mac & I are coming!!!!  It's time for a "Girls" adventure!!!   

BFN on CD 26

I think it's time to mentally prepare for AF.  Boo!  Hoo!  My temps are back to 98.32 and I tested with a First Response today with one pink line.  I guess I'm Texas bound-got to pack and get ready!  Whoo-hoo!  Time to go cheer for Leah:)  

Temps Flying Back Up! What?!?!?!

My temps this morning jumped back up to 97.72!  I think my body is crazy this month with temps!  I don't want to take a test today-I'll try to wait for the morning...I usually will get a + by Cycle day 26.  I feel like my boobs have a fever!  hehe  Is that really possible?  I think I'm pregnant.  No, I I'm not pregnant.  Well, maybe, I am pregnant.  No, I can't be pregnant.

Is this not insane?  hehe  I'll drive myself mad today.  

Leah, I'm seriously thinking about coming...Do you have New Year's Plans?  I want to either start AF or get a + on a test, though...just so, I wouldn't have to turn around...with the shots & all.  So, let's see what tomorrow will bring.  I'll call you later.

Registered for Half Marathon!!!

Mark your Calendars for March 8th!  I'll be running to the finish for the Half Marathon at Disney World!!!!  I've taken a break from running-but, ready to get back into the swing of things!  Whoo-hoo!!!!

Temps Diving Down

Well, my chart looks like a steep mountain-I have high temps going up-then, a steep downward trend.  I'm having "fiery" nips and pulls in my uterus which makes me believe this is the month.

But, with my history of temps-I realize that AF is onward, nearing in the next few days.  I'm curious though when I will begin a new cycle.  According to FF, I ovulated earlier in my cycle than normal.  So, plan for another month of trying!  I want to train for the Disney Princess Half Marathon-I'll need to see if there are any openings left!  I really was hoping to be pregnant!!!!

Boo Hoo!

Best Surprise EVER!!!

My sweet friend from Texas called  last night-she took a pregnancy test, but she couldn't figure out if it was an evap or the real thing!  Her friend rushed over with a digital test & up popped "PREGNANT!"  on Christmas Eve.  She called me again-and I'm at my family's house-jumping up & down, screaming with excitement.  This is the best news ever on Christmas!  This was her "break" month from IUI...it is amazing!  LOVE IT!  Read Crazy Infertile-and you can see pics to believe it!

Pinching Pain!?!

Implantation, maybe?!?!  Hope So!  I am 8 dpo-so, we are in the final countdown!  

I had to just write the pinching down-so, next month, if it happens again-I'll remember!

Fingers crossed!

Sam or Samantha?

My husband and I decide to "spice it up" with a new location.  Each month, we will pick a new place to conceive a baby!  We have always been "bedroom only" couple!  Well, today, we broke the mold!  :)  We will not share the location, due to liable reasons.  But, we have agreed to name the baby after the secret "lucky" location.  So, each month, I hope to share a new nickname for our baby.  We will see which one sticks!   If the van is rockin' don't come a knockin'....:)

Should I trust the Digital OPK?

Yes, I know I should trust the results.  MY SMILEY face came one day early today!  I have a positive OPK.  Month 2 attempt.  I know, it's really month 28.  But, it's sounds more positive to begin a new count.  This is what my RE does...so, why shouldn't I?  Right?  It's sad that when you have a miscarriage, you go back to Month 1.  "Give it another six months-we'll see you in May '09."  

So, the Full moon must be working tonight.  

BIG FAT NEGATIVE!

Well, I have gotten + by cycle day 26...and today I had a BFN!  POO!  Disappointed?  Yes  Suprised?  No   Rich & I looked at houses in the Birmingham area yesterday.  It was quite fun!

Life is good.  Mackenzie is beautiful.  Why should I ask for more?  I really am to the  point of "not trying" to get pregnant.  I'm ready to move on...if we get preggo-then, great!  But, I need to take care of myself & my family..not obsess about "what if."  This has practically stolen two years of my life...my thoughts....I can't let it keep taking precious time from me.

This is how I feel today.  I probably will change my mind tomorrow...But, I needed to vent!

No Cramping?

Well, I am cd 19, usually I have cramping, pulling, wierd sensations.  But, my uterus is quiet.  Quiet.  Usually, it is screaming at me!    It is nice to have NO SIGNS...I am beginning to think the new vitamins and baby aspirin are really working for my body!   I don't feel pregnant...so, my mind isn't wandering and dreaming....It's  nice to feel like I'm taking a break from worrying, questioning, predicting, etc.  Life goes on!

I'M GOING TO CRASH!!!!

Whew...yesterday was filled with DRAMA.  I was on the phone with Leah (Crazyinfertile)  driving down the interstate when a truck slammed on his brakes almost crashing into the car ahead of him.  In the last minute, he swerved into my lane with just an inch to spare.  I saw the trailer right at my face and I screamed into the phone..."I'M GOING TO CRASH!"  Leah's heart stopped beating!  I jerked the steering wheel to the right and came to a dead stop.  Pretty fancy driving, if I do say myself!   I think I had a guardian angel over me last night.  Wow!  It was close.  When I stopped shaking, I pulled back into the driving lane-rolled down my window & asked the truck driver if he was okay.  He was pretty shaken too.  He had his head back & eyes closed...but, he looked up and said, "I'm sorry!"   So, Leah & I continued our conversation on the phone!  I told my husband what happened...the first thing he said...Were you on the phone?   OF COURSE!!!

Fast & Furious!

Okay,  I believe that I'm officially in the two week wait.  Just in time for the holidays.

Mackenzie will be in a fashion show on Thursday.  Pretty funny.  I'll have to post pics!

I have a busy teaching week-so, the next few days will be fast & furious!  We are having family from out of town arrive on Saturday-Big Family Pre-Thanksgiving Dinner.  Whoo-hoo!

Apple Pie!  

I ran 3 miles today--kicking off my fast & furious week.  It felt great to not think about it-and just DO IT!  

OPK SMILEY FACE :)

Well, I'm ovulating (according to my OPK test)....Wish me luck!  I need to make some moves on my hubby!  Here I go on my "TTC Roller coaster"....I hope that I will not obsess over every detail!

I need a fresh outlook on making babies....the last two years have been exhausting and emotional.

Whoo---hooo!!!!!

It's All Sinking In

Well, I've had a few days to process.  I'm so wierd.  I really have to think through and research before I like to make a decision.  We've fought so hard in the past two years.  Now, with a simple blood test...and a month wait...we have answers.

I know this isn't the end of our battle.  But, it sure does make it seem easier.  I'm not fighting alone anymore.  I have found some great people who have been diagnosed with MTHFR and they are fighting too!  I read stories of loss after loss--and now they have their babies.  I saw a picture of a little girl about my daughter's age...and she was face to face all smiles with her new little sister.  I about lost it!  I have tears in my eyes and I realize that YES this is what I want!  I want another addition to our family.

I'll give it another shot....literally.

I can't even imagine what lies ahead for us.  It may be another loss.  It may be tears of joy.

But, I am going to find the warrior in me to do this.  

MTHFR--No, I'm not saying a bad word!

I found out today that my genetics test results came back "Flagged."

MTHFR with genetic mutations:  C677T, A1298C

Also, the Prothrombin Antibodies was 57 igm (High); RE is retesting this--he was concerned about my results.

Treatment:

81mg baby aspirin daily

Folic Acid

Prenatal Vitamin

Prescription Vitamin

Call Re when pregnant, for bloodwork & monitoring, Lovenex shots daily after positive

I am at risk for clots, miscarriage, heart attack, and fetal neural tube defects.

Information Overload.  Time to Digest.

Attended First Resolve Support group in my area!  It was nice to chat with new friends.  I actually cried when telling my story...didn't expect to do that!  Well, I hope we will enjoy our

journey together.  It's ups & downs.  

Goodnight,

Kelly

Big Day Tomorrow!

Well, tomorrow is the big day!  I am supposed to get my results back from my recurrent loss panel.  I am prepared for whatever is before us.  I think that I have come to the point of acceptance of grief and letting go.  Dr. Steinkampf may give us hope.  But, I am prepared for 

whatever may occur, I believe.

Fighting a Losing Battle?

I am...or at least it feels this way.  I am waiting for the results of my recurrent loss panel.  I've had 4 consecutive miscarriages in the two & half years of trying for baby #2.  I've been on a two month break due to doctor's orders...so, we might can find a cause for our losses.  Next monday, I should know more about our results.

I'm such a different person than I was two years ago.  I guess reality if setting in...my countdown to FF is nearing an end...I joined so I could have proof of ovulation...hoping my doctors would notice our desperate attempts to conceive.

I'm now on my third doctor with a history of one appointment...he managed to give hope by actually ordering the recurrent loss panel the same day...no waiting.  I told him that I was nearing the end of my journey...I just can't keep going through these miscarriages-my spirit can handle it, but my heart is in pieces.

Some of you may feel like you are fighting a losing battle...and yes, you may be...but, you may be just down for a count.  

In the boxing ring, I can hear the referree-counting as he slams his hand against the floor...1!!!  2!!!!  3!!!!  4!!!!!  It's loud, piercing, and I am weak.  There are moments when I feel the pain of our losses-and I'm not sure if I have the strength to get up and give it another shot.  My count is continuing upwards...not sure how much longer I will last before I hear 10!

I can see perhaps going through a miscarriage once...it's normal, right?  But, to be pounded down to the floor multiple times...God, I don't know how much more "beating" I can take!?!  All I want is another child (well, maybe two)...is that too much to ask?  Each loss turns my heart more bitter, more hardened to hope.

I speak of hope, often..but, a part of me wonders what would my journey be like without it?  Would I continue  down this road without it?  Would I allow my body, my family to experience another loss?  Where do I draw the line?

I remember saying after my third loss-that I would not try again until we had testing...now, we are at our fourth loss, and I'm finally going to get some answers...or HOPE to get answers next week.

After a two month break, I am going to be curious to see what occurs in the next few days.  Because I am ready to stop, I've been trying to picture our life with our only daughter...and trying to recreate our dreams/plans.  It's been good for me.  I think for the first time, I feel freedom.

I feel like I am laying on the floor of the boxing ring...thinking...do I get up?  Can I get up?  Will I get up?

I'll let you know what I do next week.

Kelly

One Week Wait

Okay...I'm finally in the one week wait.  It's almost been a month since our bloodwork for recurrent loss.  I wish I was seeing the RE today.  But, I'll have to wait 7 more days!  I should be good at this waiting thing...been doing it for over two and a half years now!  I am back on the Weight Watchers diet.  I let the past six months take over my emotional eating and lack of consistent exercise.  I cannot let myself  walk right into the obese category again!  It's crazy how gaining five pounds can turn into 25 pounds in just a few months.  But, I stopped being careful-and stopped my daily running routine hoping to have some baby magic.

Boo!  Hoo!

It's okay--WW is pretty easy for me.  I just need to be committed and consistent.  So, now I have some short term goals...and I am hoping to get back into my skinny jeans by Valentine's Day '09!  I think it's probably safe to say-I probably won't be pregnant...it usually takes us about 6 months to get our timing right!  So...let's see that puts us at April to getting  pregnant...

I could predict the outcome of that pregnancy-but, I'm trying to be a little positive!  ha!

I'm about to give up hope.  I've enjoyed the two month break of TTC.  I feel like I would be a better person if I didn't have to deal with another miscarriage.  I'll just wait to see what the RE says...I'm ready to move on.  

As much as we want another baby-I just don't know how much more I can take.  

FSH & Estradiol

Okay, so I had to call to confirm my HSG for tomorrow.  So, I did ask for my "values" for the FSH & Estradiol test.  (Thanks, Leah!)   So.....drum roll, please.    

FSH-9.16        Estradiol-74.3

So, now to read & obsess over these numbers will be on my to "do list" tonight.  One of my piano students' mom told me today, she just had a miscarriage (10 weeks).  It was her first loss.  She has three beautiful boys!   Everybody has a different story of their loss.  

I really hope to have a happy ending.

My friend, Mandy, sent me a story about a woman who had 8 miscarriages.  They tried to have a baby for 11 years.  Then, boom-boom...she had two healthy girls~!   Her doctor said they would not have healthy children due to her chromosomes.  

Wow. I really don't know how to respond to these stories.  I think deep within--I don't want to give up our hope of a big family.  But, I really don't know if I am strong enough to keep trying month after month.  

I've enjoyed this break. 

Signing off,

Kelly

National Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance Day

Today is National Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance Day.  Tonight, at 7pm, light a candle to remember those who have been lost through pregnancy or infant loss.  

Today we remember-

my best friend, Leah- her losses 11/05, 6/07, & 7/08

my losses-9/06, 10/07, 3/08, & 9/08

My babyfit online friends:

1sttimemom-her twins & singleton which were lost at 21 & 22 weeks

babyscoopmom-her losses 4/05, 8/05, & 5/08

ebigalee-her losses in 12/07, 5/07, and 12/06

Babyweiss-her losses 8/06 and 2/07

ousoonerchick-her loss 1/08

woman25-her losses 5/03, 6/06, & 5/07

May they never be forgotten.

God Bless.

Round #1 "Normal"

So, I got a call today from my nurse.  The FSH & Estradiol is normal.  I called Rich, Leah, Mom, & Carrie to tell them the news.  Whew!  I was a little concerned about this test.  I'm glad to see that I am "normal" in this area.  I haven't got approval from Dr. Leah yet...hehe   She wanted to know my exact numbers. 

.... So, I didn't ask.  Does that describe my personality or what?  Completely trusting in their judgement, I say okay...and wait for more information (which I didn't get!) 

So, I'll just ask for the exact information when I go to the RE on Nov. 3.  I am curious.

I have my HSG in just a few days.

Signing off.

Short Cycle!! (24 days!)

Okay, this is wierd.  I've just started my period!  My temps dropped to 97.98-and I now am officially cd 1.  I had some light spotting last night before I went to bed.  I guess I'll be calling in to schedule bloodwork & HSG.  Boy, that was fast!   I guess my body is screaming, "Help me!  Help me!"  

Are we ready for this?  Deep Breath.  Here we go.

RE Appointment #1

Hello, Dr. Michael Steinkampf!  We met our Fertility Specialist yesterday, October 8, 2008.

We were LATE due to raining morning and extreme traffic problems.  We arrived 17 minutes late.

Was I ever cranky about that!?!?!?  But, oh, well, we even left our house early-so, it wasn't something we could control.

We spent time talking to the doctor about our miscarriages.  He ordered blood work, HSG, and we will meet again on November 3 to find out what is happening.  We are to continue our TTC Break until we get the results.

I'm really excited that we are at this point of "investigating."  I'm ready to plan the rest of my life.  Our family has been in limbo, so to speak.  

I was extremely tired last night, I fell asleep on the couch.  Then, I woke up to find it was only 9pm.  I drug myself to my bed and slept through the night.  A thought passes by---Am I pregnant?  HA!   Why do I do this to myself...even when we are "Breaking?"   I am still hoping for a miracle.

Me, Four!

Yes, it's hard to believe--but, I have four losses in the past two years.  I would have never imagined myself to go through this horrid rollercoaster.  But, this is my life.  I'm trying to DEAL WITH IT.  I'm probably the most positive person in the world.  Happy-go-lucky...but, this-this is making me a "disappointed, angry bitch."   I can't believe I just wrote that (I don't normally use the B* word...)   Sorry, Mom.   

Usually when I've gone through struggle, I've always felt that God was with me.  No matter how difficult the situation was, I was going to make it and even become a stronger for it!  Now, I don't want to be a stronger person, if it means facing another loss.  Telling my four year old that "the baby stopped growing.  We will have to wait just a little longer to have a little brother or sister" is not a fun conversation.  I told myself after the third loss I would try to keep her oblivious to what was happening with our pregnancies.  But, sure enough, she said, "Mom, two lines means you have a baby in your tummy!" with a delightful squeal.  This time, I just said, "Mackenzie, you know that Mommy has a hard time with babies growing in her tummy.  We will have to wait to see what the doctor says."   

The OB is now sending me to a Reproductive Specialist for habitual pregnancy loss.  I've had three miscarriages within a year.  Am I destined for recurrent loss?  Will Mackenzie be my only child?  I am ready to be my "happy, adorbable self" again.  HA!   Poor husband, he may think she's gone forever!  I've become a person who thinks negatively....I don't like it, see?

There is no comfort for the soul, unless that comfort comes from those who have "been there. done that."  Really, it's hard for anybody to say or make you feel like a real person, until you've experienced repeated loss.  Those are the girls who understand how you feel-no one else can even begin to describe the hurt, loneliness, and pain you go through.  

I'll never forget when Leah called me with her news.  I was in Michigan with my family.  I was in the Christian book store.  I felt like my heart was pulled out of my body.  I was crying in the store.  I was so angry.  So, sad.  So, surprised that this could happen once again.  My heart was screaming on the inside. " God, you can't do this, again!"   Do you not see us in pain?  Can you just take these babies away from us?  How many times do we need to go through this before you will give us our hopes of a family?  

I stepped away from everything.  I think that's all you can do when you've been beaten down, down, down.  I'm stubborn.  I don't want to give up/quit.  I just want answers.  Will I ever be medically able to have another child?  Simple, but direct.   

I will walk away from this constant disappointment each month and never look back, if I heard "No, you are done."   "You can't have any more children."  

When someone asked me, "How many children do you want?"  I always replied "Four."  This was my magic number.  Four children just seemed like a perfect family to me.  Well, I still would love four children!   

Me, Four?  

I wish to God that it didn't mean Four Miscarriages.

(sigh)

Cervical Mucous Conversation

Don't you just love those conversations that lead to discussion about cervical mucous?  Fertile CM, as we call it, is a hot topic on our list this week.  Leah called to "brag" about how much she was experiencing this week-Go Leah!   (She is going to have an ultrasound tomorrow to see where she stands for IUI this weekend!!! ) Always a good sign when you see the ewcm!!!  I'm so crazy-I asked her for the upteenth time...so, what does it look like again?  Is it Clear???  Okay, yes, I've had that too.  But, for me, it's been arriving quite early in my cycle.  Beginning on cd 6, I first see the signs of "fertility."   This past cycle, ended on cd 9....so, does this mean I am ovulating EARLY?  Ovulation pains are all over the place...so, hopefully, this will be one of the questions I can ask my RE next week.   Of course, since I don't really have much trouble getting pregnant (usually about every 6 months)-it's the keeping the babies that's tough.   It's very hard to find women who've experienced consecutive blighted ovums (mine have now totaled three).  So, if you are out there...please shout out to me your experience.  Could it really be just bad luck???

 

Break After Chemical

 "Taking a break" is difficult.  I had clear signs of ovulation this month.  I had to just let it pass by.  My competitive nature wanted to "do the deed."  But, I just can't keep trying until we get some answers!   I believe that my RE will find a reason for our recurrent losses.  I hope that it is a simple fix.  As time passes, I feel that having another baby is getting  out of our time line.  Everybody says we are "still young."  But, I sometimes feel freedom that my daughter is reaching a more independent stage.  She will be four years old next month!   This means we are looking at our children to potentially be 5-6 years apart!  Wow....that is unbelievable.  I almost think if we are able to get pregnant-I would like to do a "back to back" pregnancy-so, we can have two that are close in age.  

Mackenzie is a wonderful child.  She had her first soccer game today!  The "Under Four" team was hilarious.  They were so cute running in a million directions.  Mackenzie was well-prepared thanks to her Daddy spending countless hours in the backyard teaching her how to "score."  She scored at least six goals today!  I was so proud of her!   

Last night, we attended a high school football game.  I saw at least five young pregnant teenage girls.  I just looked at them.  I jokingly told Rich that I wanted to ask them-if they wanted their baby, because I knew a few "moms" who would take the children in a heartbeat!   I couldn't believe I wanted to say that-and I can't believe that I was thinking those thoughts!   

Eleven more days before my first RE appointment.  I need to finish up the last pages and contact my former OB's to get my records sent to the "Alabama Fertility Specialists."

Gotta go call Leah!   

Texas Calling Alabama

Leah called me today to tell me about her new blog, http://crazyinfertile.blogspot.com/.  Wow, we've just started this "blogging thing" and we might have enough for a book!   I'm going to start where we are now, the present.

Leah is currently taking meds for the next few days to prepare for another shot at a IUI.

She told me last night that she had to remind herself to "shoot up" at 6 p.m.  and to order more medication!  It feels like it's happening so fast.  Here we go again on this crazy emotional roller coaster.  

I am currently on hold until my next doctor's appointment.  I've just experienced my first chemical pregnancy.  I had a BFP+ on Saturday, September 13, 2008.

Then, I began spotting Monday night.  Tuesday was medium flow.  Then, spotting the next two days.  I actually expected more!  I'm so experienced at this stuff!   (Miscarriage)   I took another pregnancy test on Thursday, September 18th, it was a definite faded line.  My mind kept hoping maybe I was experiencing implantation bleeding, and that in a few days I would see a bold dark line on my pregnancy test.  

Leah text messaged me on September 22nd:  If u are still up call me.   10:32 pm

So, I did.   She was reading a blog and felt like I needed to take another pregnancy test....just in case.   I was planning on doing another just to get this nagging thoughts out of my mind.  So, I went to the dollar store & picked up ONE test.   TEST:  BFN on September 24th.  At least now, I can have peace of mind, right?

Dare to Hope "The Email"

I can't believe that I'm actually confessing to this!  But, I thought you might need a good laugh....or even a good cry.  I love early BFP's...I can't resist when I know we had perfect timing to use a test.  Normally, I try to do the dollar store test.  This time, I upped the bar with FRER!

Each day, after I get my negative, I look at it a million times through out the day...in the sunshine, over lamps, something to give me a little hope.  Well, this week, I've been taking apart each test-setting it aside, then comparing all as pairs, continuing the process of windows, lamps, etc.

Tonight, I laid all my negative test on a white sheet of paper-held it over my lampshade and saw amazing things.  First, I noticed on the "cushion" side of the test (there were big fat pink lines on each one of my test...) hmmmm...intriguing...never noticed it before.

Then, in the normal testing area, I noticed nothing on the first test, indented white line on second test, then faint line on third test...my heart skips and flutters, what if???  what if???

Now, I KNOW these are all negative...and I KNOW that when I open the test...it is invalid...I'm just experimenting, grasping hope that maybe, just maybe...

I'm expecting my temps to drop tomorrow...I'll report in the AM!  I only have one test left--it's a Clear Blue Digital...I have never used before...it came free with my ovulation kit.

I will probably end up using it tomorrow.

Anyway, count yourself luck if you haven't gone to this extreme!  It's fun, but indeed crazy!  I remember the days when I never peed on a stick....I remember the days when I never knew my cycle day....and was never prepared for AF...those days are long gone!

As I tell my stories, you may have wide eyes & "Thank God" you haven't gotten to this point....or may laugh and say "Oh, I can totally relate..."

Sometimes, I feel frustrated that I let HOPE drive me to absolute belief that THIS IS THE MONTH...but, you know-I'm glad that I have this strong desire...and each month, when a new cycle begins, somehow, I don't know how---a new hope arises within me.

DESIRE-to have a family--a willingness not to give up...

There is nothing wrong with desperately hoping and wanting a child.  We may fail to "become pregnant" instantly...but, never fail to HOPE...One day, girls...one day...it will happen!

I feel really compelled to share with you, girls.  I've lost three babies...it's been two years of trying to conceive...I've always seen myself with a big family--but, I'm thirty five...and life looks a lot different than I imagined it to be.

I know some of you are down, saddened, and grieving at this time.  Please don't give up hope.  Keep striving!  Fight!  Listen to your heart.  If it tells you to take a break...listen.  If it says...keep trying, don't give up....follow your heart.

Life isn't fair.   Sometimes, you feel alone in your journey...but, HOPE wants to accompany you.

I'll never forget what Betsey said the month she got pregnant "She dared to Wear her white shorts!"  That is so classic!!!   She had ups & downs...but, she never let hope die!  (Betsey tried, also, for two years!)  She is twenty weeks pregnant today!!!

I miss her Spirit.

Dare to Hope.

Dare to Hope "The Email"

Blog, Girl!

This blog is dedicated to friendship.  My best friend, Leah,  told me to "Blog, girl!"  after I sent her an email.  So, I am taking her advice venturing out into this unknown world to share my story.  

In two weeks, I have my first RE appointment.  I am being referred to this specialist due to recurrent pregnancy loss.  I have experienced four losses in the past two years.  

Two different stories.  Two different personalities.   Two Different Doctors.  Two Different States.  Welcome to "Talking Tummies."