Cleaning Like a Mad Woman!

Well, another cycle has come & gone.  It wasn't as emotional as last cycle.  I think I'm doing a good job at keeping busy with life, rather than obsessing about the hope of pregnancy.  We found an adorable house that we love--but, it hinges on the selling of our current home.  I've been cleaning like a mad woman.  My house, almost looks, brand new!  I would love to buy some bedding for my daughter's bed & our bed...but, I may have to wait until May!  Darn!  I put my couch, chair, ottoman, and recliner on Craigslist hoping for a quick sale.  Rich & I found a leather sofa we would like to buy--and it's time to freshen up our rooms.  I have Spring Fever so much this year.  I'm even tempted put our baby furniture and accessories up for sale!  I am loving my clutter free life!  Simple is better!  

Chocolate Cravings!

Well, I'm have strong cravings for chocolate!  (A sign that AF should be on her way! Boo!)  I have chocolate chip cookies in the oven calling my name!  I need to get out and do a run this morning, too!  It's going to be a crazy day!  

Valentine's Weekend!

Hugs & Kisses!!!!  I love Valentine's day.  I'm one who wants it to be so sweet!  So, I kicked off the weekend making heart shaped sugar cookies with cream cheese icing and red sprinkles!  (My mom's tradition)  Then, we all dressed up in RED-Mackenzie, Rich, and I---looking pretty spiffy!!  We went to a fundraiser dance to dance our little hearts out! If you could only see Rich & Mackenzie doing "The Hustle" side by side-precious.  I tried a new Latino dance-by the last rotation, I finally had it down.  (It takes me awhile!)  Then, we picked up my sister (Aunt Carrie) and headed to one of my favorite places-SUMO!  Yummy!  

Today, I ran...and ran....and ran....training for the Disney Princess Half Marathon.  I think I'm ready-and I have three more Sundays until the BIG day.  I can't wait-we will have a blast. 

So, fertility wise--I am on cycle day 19 with only 7 more days of Fertility Friend.  I don't want to let my subscription run out, but I've decided to close it down.  I still have my favorite BabyFit website, it's free!  So, if I have questions, I can ask those girls.  I've made some pretty cool friendships online!  My plan is to continue running, eat healthy, take my vitamins, and if pregnancy is supposed to happen...then, let it be.  I think I've come to peace about where I am at with this crazy journey.  It feels good to not be absorbed into ovulation and the two week wait.  I have found that I really love my life!   

So, hope you all have a great Valentine's day/weekend!   

Fun Weekend!

It was a great weekend!  We had our first small group at our home Friday night.  We had about 11 adults, 3 teenagers, and three small children.  Wow..it was a party!  Rich & I had a blast!  I was so excited!  On Saturday, I registered Mackenzie for Spring Soccer.  Then, she played with her cousins for a few hours.  On Sunday, we attended church, then looked at another neighborhood in Hoover, and then I had to run 8 miles for training.  I only could do 7 miles before my knee started to slow me down.  So, I had to walk back.  I hope my knee will not hold me back from completing my half marathon!  I should be ovulating any day now...but, it's nice not to be obsessing about it.

I needed the change of scenery.  I hope to become pregnant in the next few months...but, I'm okay with it not happening...I mean, what can I do?   I usually get pregnant every six month--and this is my sixth month....since my miscarriage.   Rich & I finished our weekend watching Fireproof.  It was a good story.  I thought Rich may fall asleep-but, he stayed up (Mackenzie too!).  By the end of the movie, we were all snuggled together in our bed in a big family hug.  Love Bugs.  

Day One

It's getting more difficult the further we get down this road.  Time is passing.  I am feeling a new direction with my journey toward more children.  I had the "fight" in me a few months ago.  But, I feel it wavering each cycle that reminds me it's not happening this time.  I'm starting to imagine my life with one child.  I guess this was how it is meant to be.  I really don't know how many more months we can continue this hope.  

Leah has her ultrasound right now....I'm anticipating good news.  She deserves a baby to love and nurture!   I hope she calls me with a happy heart!  

My half marathon is a little over a month away.  I signed Mackenzie up for her first official race.  She will be participating in the 200 yard dash at Epcot.  It should be pretty fun!  I want to take great pictures that weekend!  It will be nice for us to go on a little vacation to Disney World.  

My updates have been quiet this month-we are wanting to put our home up for sale in February. I've been busy cleaning, giving away baby stuff, and organizing.  I hope it will not

take us long to sell our house.  We are ready for a change.

Leah's Ultrasound

Today is Leah's ultrasound day....I wonder if this is what my family feels like when I have my doctor's appointments.  The two week wait is difficult-but, nothing in comparison to the two, three, four week wait for ultrasound updates!  When you go through recurrent miscarriage, you expect the worst and hope for the best.  It's odd.  But, that's how life is.  

I remember the innocence of Mackenzie's ultrasound-I remember having an empty gestational sac...and I freaked out--but, once the doctors told me it was normal, I believed them!  Now, when I have a empty gestational sac--I think, oh, no...not again.

My daughter just ran into my room..."Mommy, if we have a baby, we can name her America!" America?  Baby talk is constant in our home.  Oh, dear!

Leah, I hate that we live 13 hours away from each other!  I hate that we share this news over the phone!  I wish my support could be visible.  I am thinking and praying for you today!

Here's Your Sign!

Well, I have had the signs start to flag me down that I am in prime ovulation.  I'm actually relaxed this cycle with less anticipation for the big event.  I think my husband is thrilled!  Thank you, body, for being so sweet into informing me of the egg release rather than getting a message from the OPK or BBT, it's much more personal.  :)  

I'm not obsessed this month with trying to maximize perfect timing.  However, we have discussed "Chloe" as an optional girl name for this month.  We figured "Zet" for a boy.  

So, I have been so frustrated with Leah's pregnancy drama.  Poor girl, it's just not easy.  Why can I relate?  I pray that her doctors are proactive in dealing with her blood clots....It's been a long week--thankfully, the baby is still there.  Please, God, let there be a heartbeat this week!  I hate the wait....

It's cold here in Bama--I ran 5 miles today!  Perfect running weather!  I'll weigh in tomorrow to see if I have lost any pounds this week.  I haven't had a perfect week--but, it's been so much better!  Day by Day...