Day One

It's getting more difficult the further we get down this road.  Time is passing.  I am feeling a new direction with my journey toward more children.  I had the "fight" in me a few months ago.  But, I feel it wavering each cycle that reminds me it's not happening this time.  I'm starting to imagine my life with one child.  I guess this was how it is meant to be.  I really don't know how many more months we can continue this hope.  

Leah has her ultrasound right now....I'm anticipating good news.  She deserves a baby to love and nurture!   I hope she calls me with a happy heart!  

My half marathon is a little over a month away.  I signed Mackenzie up for her first official race.  She will be participating in the 200 yard dash at Epcot.  It should be pretty fun!  I want to take great pictures that weekend!  It will be nice for us to go on a little vacation to Disney World.  

My updates have been quiet this month-we are wanting to put our home up for sale in February. I've been busy cleaning, giving away baby stuff, and organizing.  I hope it will not

take us long to sell our house.  We are ready for a change.

Leah's Ultrasound

Today is Leah's ultrasound day....I wonder if this is what my family feels like when I have my doctor's appointments.  The two week wait is difficult-but, nothing in comparison to the two, three, four week wait for ultrasound updates!  When you go through recurrent miscarriage, you expect the worst and hope for the best.  It's odd.  But, that's how life is.  

I remember the innocence of Mackenzie's ultrasound-I remember having an empty gestational sac...and I freaked out--but, once the doctors told me it was normal, I believed them!  Now, when I have a empty gestational sac--I think, oh, no...not again.

My daughter just ran into my room..."Mommy, if we have a baby, we can name her America!" America?  Baby talk is constant in our home.  Oh, dear!

Leah, I hate that we live 13 hours away from each other!  I hate that we share this news over the phone!  I wish my support could be visible.  I am thinking and praying for you today!

Here's Your Sign!

Well, I have had the signs start to flag me down that I am in prime ovulation.  I'm actually relaxed this cycle with less anticipation for the big event.  I think my husband is thrilled!  Thank you, body, for being so sweet into informing me of the egg release rather than getting a message from the OPK or BBT, it's much more personal.  :)  

I'm not obsessed this month with trying to maximize perfect timing.  However, we have discussed "Chloe" as an optional girl name for this month.  We figured "Zet" for a boy.  

So, I have been so frustrated with Leah's pregnancy drama.  Poor girl, it's just not easy.  Why can I relate?  I pray that her doctors are proactive in dealing with her blood clots....It's been a long week--thankfully, the baby is still there.  Please, God, let there be a heartbeat this week!  I hate the wait....

It's cold here in Bama--I ran 5 miles today!  Perfect running weather!  I'll weigh in tomorrow to see if I have lost any pounds this week.  I haven't had a perfect week--but, it's been so much better!  Day by Day...

Playing in the Rain

Well, today, I ran 2 miles in the rain.  Actually,  it was inspiring and delightful.  I think sometimes we get so caught up in routines and forget how to play in the rain.  My neighbors probably thought I was crazy!  But, it felt empowering to complete my training goal despite the weather. I felt like Rocky Balboa:)  Getting ready for the big event.

I had to check Fertility Friend to actually see that I'm cycle day 9!  I have no signs of early ovulation this time around.  NO SIGNS.  I'm going to break from OPK & temping for the next two months.  But, we will keep trying to conceive.  One day we will catch that egg!  

I feel content today.  Happy.  Blessed.

Back Home!

I had the BEST time in Texas this past week!  I can't wait to go back!!!!

Leah, Mackenzie, and I were busy shopping, sight seeing, eating, and walking the dogs!

I'm back on my running schedule!  I completed my 5 mile goal on Sunday!  I thought I was going to die!  I can't wait until I run five miles easily:)  I really need to write down what I eat for the next 8 weeks.  I've picked up some unhealthy habits the past six months.  It's time to get serious about my yo-yo weight.

I took Mackenzie swimming for one hour today!  

Okay--well, no OPK's for me this month.  It will be Mystery Month!  hehe  

I'm waiting to hear about Leah's bloodwork for today--she will have an ultrasound on

Wednesday!  My Babyfit friend's are sending her well-wishes!