No Cramping?

Well, I am cd 19, usually I have cramping, pulling, wierd sensations.  But, my uterus is quiet.  Quiet.  Usually, it is screaming at me!    It is nice to have NO SIGNS...I am beginning to think the new vitamins and baby aspirin are really working for my body!   I don't feel pregnant...so, my mind isn't wandering and dreaming....It's  nice to feel like I'm taking a break from worrying, questioning, predicting, etc.  Life goes on!

I'M GOING TO CRASH!!!!

Whew...yesterday was filled with DRAMA.  I was on the phone with Leah (Crazyinfertile)  driving down the interstate when a truck slammed on his brakes almost crashing into the car ahead of him.  In the last minute, he swerved into my lane with just an inch to spare.  I saw the trailer right at my face and I screamed into the phone..."I'M GOING TO CRASH!"  Leah's heart stopped beating!  I jerked the steering wheel to the right and came to a dead stop.  Pretty fancy driving, if I do say myself!   I think I had a guardian angel over me last night.  Wow!  It was close.  When I stopped shaking, I pulled back into the driving lane-rolled down my window & asked the truck driver if he was okay.  He was pretty shaken too.  He had his head back & eyes closed...but, he looked up and said, "I'm sorry!"   So, Leah & I continued our conversation on the phone!  I told my husband what happened...the first thing he said...Were you on the phone?   OF COURSE!!!

Fast & Furious!

Okay,  I believe that I'm officially in the two week wait.  Just in time for the holidays.

Mackenzie will be in a fashion show on Thursday.  Pretty funny.  I'll have to post pics!

I have a busy teaching week-so, the next few days will be fast & furious!  We are having family from out of town arrive on Saturday-Big Family Pre-Thanksgiving Dinner.  Whoo-hoo!

Apple Pie!  

I ran 3 miles today--kicking off my fast & furious week.  It felt great to not think about it-and just DO IT!  

OPK SMILEY FACE :)

Well, I'm ovulating (according to my OPK test)....Wish me luck!  I need to make some moves on my hubby!  Here I go on my "TTC Roller coaster"....I hope that I will not obsess over every detail!

I need a fresh outlook on making babies....the last two years have been exhausting and emotional.

Whoo---hooo!!!!!

It's All Sinking In

Well, I've had a few days to process.  I'm so wierd.  I really have to think through and research before I like to make a decision.  We've fought so hard in the past two years.  Now, with a simple blood test...and a month wait...we have answers.

I know this isn't the end of our battle.  But, it sure does make it seem easier.  I'm not fighting alone anymore.  I have found some great people who have been diagnosed with MTHFR and they are fighting too!  I read stories of loss after loss--and now they have their babies.  I saw a picture of a little girl about my daughter's age...and she was face to face all smiles with her new little sister.  I about lost it!  I have tears in my eyes and I realize that YES this is what I want!  I want another addition to our family.

I'll give it another shot....literally.

I can't even imagine what lies ahead for us.  It may be another loss.  It may be tears of joy.

But, I am going to find the warrior in me to do this.  

MTHFR--No, I'm not saying a bad word!

I found out today that my genetics test results came back "Flagged."

MTHFR with genetic mutations:  C677T, A1298C

Also, the Prothrombin Antibodies was 57 igm (High); RE is retesting this--he was concerned about my results.

Treatment:

81mg baby aspirin daily

Folic Acid

Prenatal Vitamin

Prescription Vitamin

Call Re when pregnant, for bloodwork & monitoring, Lovenex shots daily after positive

I am at risk for clots, miscarriage, heart attack, and fetal neural tube defects.

Information Overload.  Time to Digest.

Attended First Resolve Support group in my area!  It was nice to chat with new friends.  I actually cried when telling my story...didn't expect to do that!  Well, I hope we will enjoy our

journey together.  It's ups & downs.  

Goodnight,

Kelly

Big Day Tomorrow!

Well, tomorrow is the big day!  I am supposed to get my results back from my recurrent loss panel.  I am prepared for whatever is before us.  I think that I have come to the point of acceptance of grief and letting go.  Dr. Steinkampf may give us hope.  But, I am prepared for 

whatever may occur, I believe.