Ovulation

Okay-cycle day 10 is here-wow...that was fast!  How in the world is time going by so quickly?  It used to drag---is the process getting easier?  

Leah's Ultrasound

Leah is 21 weeks pregnant now!!!  Her ultrasound is so beautiful.  It's nice to see the baby growing-it's really going to happen!  We've had a rough few years-now, there is good news at this point of the journey!  Leah's baby is going to be loved so much!  She will know that she was much wanted/needed in their life!  

2010, are you serious?

Okay...AF arrived--two days late.  So, my chance for a 2009 baby is out!  I really am disappointed of this journey.   I want more kids so much-but, it is just not happening.  

Adventure 101

Today, I spent the day with my family.  Well, sort of family...We had Easter dinner at my step-mom's ex-husband's home.  Yes, I wrote that correctly...It's a LONG story.   The three little "cousins" are four years old, then the older girls were six and eight.  It was a jammed packed day with easter egg hunts, playing outside, and a BIG dinner. Mackenzie calls the host "Grand-Dad"...because all of the rest of the cousins call him that!  She just goes with the flow.  

So, all the kids were exploring the creek in the back of Grand-Dad's house.  I told my step-sisters that I felt strange not being with Mackenzie.  They just looked at me like I was strange.  I just never let her play outside without me being right there with her.  Am I overprotective?  I think not....She's FOUR~!  

Well, my husband and I stepped outside for a moment to see if we could see the kids playing outside!  Suddenly, we heard a loud scream/cry.  I thought it was my step-sister's son...he is usually the one who cries.  We decided to walk and check out what was happening.  Across the neighbor's back yard, then through a wooded lot, we walked together.  Then, we heard Mackenzie crying, "I want my Momma!"  She was following another young friend to us.

Mackenzie was soaked from head to toe in muddy creek water!  I couldn't believe my eyes!  I asked her if she fell into the creek.  She said, "No, I wanted to see what it felt like to walk in the creek!"  I giggled!  "Are there other kids in the creek?"   She said, "No, just me and Julia."

I couldn't tell if she was crying because she was scared or if she was scared she would get into trouble.  Poor girl!  We had to take her up to her cousin's bath-strip her down, wash all the mud off her legs, then, slip her into "boy" clothes!  (which she did not like at all!)

A part of me was glad she had that experience-she had a little adventure!  How fun!  Then, another part of me was relieved it wasn't a serious mistake.  

So, we were cleaning up the kitchen later that evening...

Mackenzie comes running in with urgency in her eyes.  She said, "Mom, come on!"  I followed her outside.  "What do you need Mackenzie?"  She said, "I don't know, but just follow me!"  A part of me wanted to walk back inside the house...but, she was like a little dog trying to protect her family.  

She said, "Come on, Mom!"  I followed through the backyard of the neighbor's house...then, the wooded lot, across the bridge, where I heard screams and cries.  I looked across the bridge and I began laughing.  All the cousins were stuck in the neighbor's old hammock.  One was upside down with her legs up in the air, one was lying stomach flat scared to move, another was on her back not able to move without help, the last was "pretending" to be stuck-he jumped into a hole of the hammock.  

I said, "Are you guys pretending to be stuck?"  I wished at that moment to have a camera because it was the funniest thing to see four kids all jumbled up in a old hammock.  One girl had tears coming down her face, "No, it was not a trick."  I helped each child out of their odd position.  Thinking..How in the world did this happen?  I couldn't help but laugh, it reminded me of all the adventure books I read as a child.  This whole day seemed to be right out of a book!

Then I  said, "Hey!  I think it's time for some Easter Cake!"  It helped the six pack to move a little faster to the house.  I told them they better be glad that Mackenzie was so persistent, or I might have stayed in the kitchen.  Little Mackenzie didn't know how to express the urgency through her words...she just kept saying, "Come on, Momma...Follow Me."

It's wierd to see my child experience life in her own little way.  I remember having adventures with my cousins.  Some of the best memories of my life were on those family holidays.  I know this has nothing to do with infertility...but, it was such a fun memory, I thought I would write it down....

Easter Egg

Has my wonderful husband found the "Easter Egg?"  I am way too early to know.  But, the holidays make me want this so much!  Mackenzie & I looked at little baby easter outfits.  She said, "Momma, if we have a baby, we can match Easter dresses!"  I would love to have her share these moments with a brother or sister.  

We've been looking online for research/clinical trials that we might can participate in for my MTHFR.  I am going to talk to my RE to see if I would qualify for one in Chicago.  I would be very interested in participating with my history.  

Happy Easter!  

Root Canal!!!

What?  A Root Canal???!?!  I had to go to the dentist today--I had a horrible toothache which resulted in a root canal this afternoon.  Unbelievable...so, here goes a cycle down the toilet!  With all the xrays, medications, etc....just call me "Lucky Kelly"---whoo-hoo!  

Last cycle

This is my last cycle before my RE appointment!  I can't believe six months has arrived!  It really is crazy to realize that we have been trying to have a baby for three years!  My husband and I have been up and down about continuing our "trying to conceive" journey.  I called him at work--and said...are we going to try this month?  He replied, "Do you want too?"  We seem to be going around in circles, the emotional side of this is very difficult.  

My best friend had her positive test on Christmas Eve:)  I think it would be a great story, if Rich & I could have our due date on Christmas Day!  la-la-la-la....inspiration to others not to give up!  

There is a girl in my Babyfit group who has been diagnosed with MTHFR-she has one son--and multiple miscarriages, just like me.  She just got a faint positive yesterday--and she is hoping it's not a chemical!  She is seeing her RE today.  Her history is so much like mine...almost identical.  I hope that she will keep this baby.

Leah is 18 weeks now---having a GIRL!!!  I'm so excited!  I can't wait to see her Belly!!!